I’m not sure I’m getting the point of The News. I’m sure it’s meant to be sad and gritty, but all I can think about is clothes and how good people look when they die young.
The Stephen Lawrence enquiry has revealed some great 90s clothes collected as evidence. With a 90s revival nearing the end, I am still in love with the clothes I would have been wearing back then had I been cool.
What an outfit! Jazzy jacket, sparkly cardi, pink polo shirt and high waisted acid-wash jeans. When I look round today and see all these draw-string grey tracky bottoms, v neck t shirts and silly bobble hats, I despair. Think about it people- do you really want to die dressed head-to-toe in Primark?
A relationship is a relay team, and each couple passes on their own make of baton. Ours is misery and irritation. All last night and this morning, Esther has had the full blown grumps.
“What’s the point? Christmas day is just like any other- we’ll get up, eat till we’re sick, walk the dogs, watch TV and go to sleep”
The thing is, when I think about it, that’s true. Coz Esther doesn’t work, this isn’t a holiday or a treat for her. It’s just another day.I cling onto hope when Weasel and Kung Fu, Esther’s parents, ring up and invite us for coffee.
Surely she won’t dare ruin their day too?
Of course she will- that’s her sacred role in the sisterhood.
We go for Eggnog Lattes in Starbucks with them and Lisa. Weasel has promised to buy a winter hat for Esther. She gets out the brochure for her to choose from.
Weasel- “Choose your top 4 from here”
“I don’t want one” she petulates (this should be a word- I’ve written it, so now it is)
A look of weary resignation flits across Weasels face. Lisa rolls her eyes.
“Give it here then” Esther chides, snatching the leaflet from Kung Fu’s hand, and without seeming to look, scrawls numbers next to pictures.
“You didn’t even look at that!” says Lisa in horror
“Yes I did; white’s the best colour, so I chose the whitest then numbered down from there”.
We are clearly dealing with a genius here, for whom simple tasks like this are odious and best treated with contempt. She is Big Bang Theory’s Sheldon in foreshortened female form.
Well you know what, now it’s time for my go with the bastard baton. It always changes from red to green in my hand though- from misanthropy to jealousy when passed from a middle to an only child. a week ago we paid £15 for the runtiest tree we could find. It leans over drunkenly like my erection.
Now, on Christmas Eve, the trees that were for sale at the bottom of our road have been abandoned. Lisa and Dom can take their pick, and choose one 3 times the size of ours, for free! In what universe are the poor allowed to triumph over the rich with such smugness? What’s the point of having ostentatious spending, if other people are going to get the same stuff for free??
I know I should be thinking “It warms the cockles of my heart to see the Tiny Tim’s of the world smiling”
But instead it’s “I want a tree that big! Maybe I should have two trees, then I’ll win!” Winning in my mind is a vague concept, something to do with the unhindered accumulation of stuff. I guess it comes from the entitlement of being the golden child backed into a corner by a real world full of grasping hands.
Suffice to say, when we both got home we had snapped the baton in half and carved each others faces with it.
Esther- “I’m not going to wrap your presents…”
Me- “Why not?”
Esther- “Coz I hate wrapping presents. I can’t be bothered”
Me- “Well, we can put them in plastic bags at least…?”
Esther- “I can do what I like. You can do what you like”
She stomps upstairs for a snooze.
“Don’t go to sleep” I call after her plaintively
“Erm, because we can go and watch Christmas TV…?”
“I’m bored of TV”
“We can…tidy up?”
This isn’t going to work. She grunts and disappears. Why can’t I think of anything to do anymore? My excitement is draining away. What’s the point of anything?
I trudge upstairs to bed.
TO BE CONTINUED…