I don’t know how it is with you, but often when we are getting ready for bed, I strike up a conversation with one of the weirdos in my head.
“That’s just so typical for a namby-pamby white boy!”
“I’m like this usually am I?”
“That’s what typical means you dickwad”
At this point Esther interjects
“What the hell are you doing? Stop being horrible to yourself!”
“I wasn’t being horrible to my self, I was being horrible to him”
“He’s…someone in my head. I was just telling him he’s talking tautologies”
“Well, I can’t see any other namby-pamby white boys in here” she reasons, ” so you must be talking to yourself.
I open and close my mouth, but I can’t explain the complex social world of my imagination. So she continues;
“You make the world seem darker when you express your mental illness like this. It’s already dark enough”
In other news, Lisa has just given her tiny cottage a Spring clean and found some unopened Christmas presents from her sister.
And Tobias and I went to a life-drawing class in Manchester that promised sleazy rock n roll with a model who looked and sounded like Joan Jett.
What actually happened was there was a chubby girl in an ill-fitting bodycon dress and too-small bikini top who stood around holding a guitar (badly) and trying to look moody (even worsely). And then some bloke came on and played punk songs on a Ukelele, which could have been good but he looked like Kevin McCloud and sounded like Billy “shoutyman” Bragg, who I despise (Where’s the pop? Where’s the camp?).
So, we skipped out early and met up with George, who refused to subject himself to the embarrassment of drawing in public, and instead who’d been sat happily eating a burger in a bar round the corner. Until that is, he’d made the fatal mistake of nipping to the loo, and some people had stolen his seat even though his half eaten burger and pint were still there. We are obvs not used to big city life, having come from soft-lad provincial Sheffield.
“They’d already started eating so I didn’t want to cause a fuss” he explained.
“It’s the big city, boys” Tobias chimed in, with a maniacal glean in his eye.
Indeed it is. I once saw a woman chased down the street by a driver enraged when she had tapped the boot with her hand because he had stopped in the middle of a pelican crossing. He ran from the car, yelling “drive round the corner” to his girlfriend, who was obvs practised at this and leaped into the driver’s seat. Meanwhile, the offending woman was cornered and cowered under a staccato dance of almost-blows as the man spent his anger.
I resolved there and then to desist my car-tapping ways.
Lastly, Esther has had her wisdom tooth out. The anaesthetic didn’t take so they had to jab the needle in two, three, four times before giving up and just yanking the thing out. This was a day ago and she has swollen up so much now that if you catch her from the wrong side, she looks like a gorilla. She will only eat liquid food, apart from soup.
“Eating soup is like drowning in food. Food shouldn’t be liquid, it’s disgusting. Apart from chocolate mousses.”
So far, she has eaten chocolate mousses, jelly and fish pie. She’s just bought some marshmallows but she can’t open her mouth wide enough to fit them in, so her moans have become more frequent. Eventually she fell asleep, but her snores are amplified by the swelling into deep cave rumbles.
At least I can’t hear the cat snorting coke anymore.